unconcious .

here i am standing on the edge of everything once more , umm regarding everything i've been through , somewhat i gained a new chapter of my life journey . yet everything i passed by full of ups n downs , i have to agreed that everything happened in my life connected of what i've been thinking deep down in my own unconcious mind , of what i shall believe n what i shall do .

hmm , despite of all things , yesterday my fav soon-to-be president again Mr. SBY announced his vice president . i had a bad feeling of his choice , but when i heard his speech , it's like bingbangboom ! i should vote for him . hahahaaa.

. . . . . hmmmm

oh my.what do i do with my blog?looks less interesting at all.
geezzzz

7th April was my b-day . hihii

huaaaaa . i thought this post is too late to even speak of my thoughts n feelings back days .

but rememberring he's present n all the surprises he made , wiiiiiiiiiii , it's still overwhelming me . hihihiiiii .

huhuhuuuu . happy bday to me . n thanks fellas for all your best wishes , hope it'll come true .

these are surprises from Panduu ,

at night , we hung out in PI and GI , it was lovely . so much joy n happy yippi yeeeeeiii !!!!!

b l a c k o u t .

yesterday , was my worst , worst day . even it worse from my dinosaur nightmares . it happened while i was having backout for several minutes at my residence . during that blackout , i also revealed something that really made me almost cry like a little girl . 

i found out someone's lying . i hated person lying , especially who i loved most . when they're lying , my whole life n feeling connected to them just dissapeared n turned out to be a furious revenge . i don't even like this situation , worse i don't also even know who to trust .

it's not like the first time i 've been in this situation . but to find out who's lying was kind of freaking me out . especially , when i really love him . love him indeed . it really makes my heart broken , broken to fragile , n i don't even know how to behave n face this kind of situation .

hopefully , as my blackout shined on ,  i'll also had my day brightened , n this kind of situation , never has to come up twice or maybe trice in my life .

see ya. 

dedicated to : 180206

V for V I O L I N .

as a freelance violin player , i do want some of the masterpieces in the world of violin . so , i started to collect violin based on the quality . 

*not to mentioned that i also like the affordable one . hihii

and i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee this one of the most magnificent violin ever as a present .

anyone pleeeeeeaaaaaaaaase ??????

i'm begging you . hahaaa.

it is for you , my beloved soulmate !

i had a bad hearing thing . especially when people talked about me behind my back . it's like they don't even know about me , but they pretending like they were my soulmate for sure .

well , it came for me once . i don't even know the girl , but she kept pretending like she was my besties . it's not like i don't like her cause she talked about me , but what if she talked something bad about u and u never actually felt that it was u she's talking . yapp , she's making it up . and guess who's the audiences ? it's my Pandu . hahahaa , guess that i've seen someone who adores me so much so that she obsessed of what i got , included my boy friend . geeeeeeeez . 

did i tell you how i miss my family??

it's been 2 months since i barely coming home . now i miss my mom , dad , bro , sis , and even my room there . i'm sorry that i had no picture of them .

all i know was i really miss them a lot . and i can't bear it any longer . :(

fortunetely , i had them as my coolest friends on earth !!

and also my super boyfriend whom really liked going anywhere with me , even it's just a super mall of his surroundings . but i love it !!